Thank You

Do you have people in your life that when you read the message below you kinda think of them?


Thank you! For being such a good person, friend and family to me that what you learned, you taught me generously. You gave me soo many advices when in fact the problem was one and only one to begin with. You never get tired of listening to my own dose of drama. You always give back more than I could give you. I don't know how well to appreciate someone in my life that is soo good, I feel like I'll always be too lucky for meeting you. Thank you for letting me be me. That even knowing how worse I could get you still show compassion and understanding and caring towards me.

I don't know if I'll ever be able to express enough my celebration of knowing you. The very fact of your existence amazed me. (okay, thats just too much! Lol!) Seriously, I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and see someone who is good, understanding, compassionate, caring, a healer, and all that and more! I honestly think my eyes would be too small to hold such qualities too! So look quickly! Haha! :P thank you for cracking a joke that's just too funny, I could just die laughing. Lol!
Thank you for coming into my life and though we both know everything changes, and our friendship may change, we agree that what we share are real. And we may grow apart one day, but we carry everything within us.


And to my friends who can read this; yes, I'll never run out of people to thank in my entire life! Coz my life alone is such a wonder that I don't know if i am thanking God enough for it! But i give Him my gratitude anyway. The very breath I take right now is a miracle!
What i do know is try thanking the people who've made my life so amazingly blessed and wonderful coz they are in it. Who captivated a part of me, for which they'll always hold. Who blew me away, for which a part of me will always be with them. And yes, my life isn't perfect it's just like you and all the others. But look around. Look at the people around you and you'll realized how lucky, miraculous, joyful life can be. Get pass over the negativity. Rise above it, and start thanking those people of whom existence in your life is such a wonder! Of whose presence would always be a daily living miracle!
Much love :)

Thank You!

Photo credit: Boyet Avila

excruciatingly tired!!! need not put this on fb coz, i feel really lost on this one. dang!

If your heart can keep you safe..

I was talking to a friend and this gave me an idea what to write today.

How many of us really wanted an approval from the people we care about? A nod, a hug, a tap in the back, a 'hey! That's great' and all those approving words and gestures? And everything's- gonna- be- alright-kinda thing for us? Why do we do that? Why do we want an approval? Why do we need validation from others? (mind you, I am like this too. Ha!)

Through this journey what I've always bear in mind, wherever life may take me, whomever I meet along the way and whatever happens, I don't need to prove other people's choices are wrong just so I can believe in my chosen choice. But having said that, be absolutely confident and sure that, Your Heart Can Keep You Safe. Coz, frankly speaking, it isn't easy to go against the grain. When the people you care about tells you and expects you to do things their way and you've done that like almost all your life- it's gonna be one hard task for you. Can your heart take it?
But you know the price?
You gain back that self-love. You gain back that freedom you're on the brink of losing. You gain back the You! You finally found out for such a long, freakin' hard time who's got your back no matter what! Who just accepts you unconditionally bcoz you are you and not bcoz you're like their dummy following their ways.

Be yourself! By now, we're too mature enough to realized that not everyone around us will understand and accept us. Not everyone we care about will care to us the way we want them too. But heck on that! We've got everything we will ever need within ourselves! The greatest relationship we will ever meet is our relationship within ourselves. Thank God/That Which Is Divine/All That There Is that we are created as A Whole! We are not incomplete without our spouses, mother, father, children, siblings, loved ones etc. bcoz we've always been complete! We complete ourselves! That's just maybe a bit hard to understand but God is so good, everything we will ever need is within us!

I am not saying hate the people who can not accept the real you. Or forget them. I personally think, The truth is when people kept on holding on you even after you've become the real you is either they truly love you, or they were really crying for help. Listen with your heart. There's a reason why people are in your life. You can help them, try to understand them, but Never live your life according to their terms. For their own life is their own responsibility, same as yours. Understand that we are all here to learn our individual lessons. What I'm trying to say is, you can be yourself, say what you want, do what you want and still be in the company of them. Isn't that what being at peace is all about? (at peace within one's self) be in the middle of a chaos/people who disapprove of what you do,events that don't seem to go your way, but still kept stillness inside? Much love ;)

Everything Happens For A Reason

A moment in your life when you are just sitting quietly in a place surrounded by plants, flowers and trees. The clouds are getting darker. The atmosphere suddenly changed. The wind is blowing, and it's a bit cold. The scent of the air from the whistling sound of the trees through the kiss from the wind, so fresh! I can smell it. Goodness, my lungs feel good for once! My hair can hear it and is dancing with the tune. And before I realize it, the rain begins to fall. Raining down on all. Giving life to where it touches. Showering the plants from the dust. Clearing the air from the pollution. And I sit down. Watch the rain as it gracefully executes the job.

One of the quote I live by is the," everything happens for a reason." really and seriously, you've got to agree with me on this one. When we lose something/someone, we gain another. Life plays beautifully! Gratitude for the life you have now. Gratitude to God for believing in you that you are strong enough to live this life. Gratitude for everything that had happened and is happening and will happen for these will all mold you to a better you and just bcoz you have faith that everything happens according to His will/to That Which Is Divine.

So if you're experiencing a struggle right now, know that this too shall pass. And if bad things come in three, so do Good. At times, when we have done so much to water our grass, the rain has to step in, (all the while we thought it's bad and asked why when we're doing everything we can) do it's job and after the rain, look again. See? The grass is greener and cleaner on your side now. Sometimes we just gotta have that Faith.. That everything will work out. As Marilyn once said, which was similarly close or even one with the quote above, " good things fall apart, so better things can fall together." but know that it's not just a quote it's a truth we all share. We will never realized and understand something that is taking place in our lives (specially the complex ones) for the moment, but just Live. Trust. Breath. Love. Continue to move forward holding that faith closely in your heart and soul and when you feel like you have overcome the situation, look again.(even Steve Jobs would agree with me. Lol!) This time with a clean heart and a mind full of understanding. And you will have a better judgment why things happened the way they did. And seriously, what could be more liberating than being able to understand your own life? For when you can understand you, you can understand others. For we are all one. Much love ;)

Photo credit: Boyet Avila ( again stolen. Wasn't able to upload photos yesterday. Ha!)

Forgiveness...

How do you love yourself? I mean how much do you love yourself? What is it about you that is stopping you from loving yourself unconditionally? Why can't you just give in to that unconditional self love that would free
you from all the suffering of the people who have hurt you/ you've hurt or of the past that continually haunt you? Or of the future that terrifies you? Or of the now that you can not even start living bcoz you do not love yourself enough?

Inner self-forgiveness. Give yourself the gift of forgiveness. Sometimes when other people commit mistakes on us we can easily forgive them. But when we are on the culprit side of things, we can not immediately forgive ourselves. Why??? Why can we easily forgive others, but ourselves- no way? Have we put ourselves on a pedestal that we are not supposed to do any wrong? How can we highly think of ourselves to the extent that we can not forgive ourselves' shortcomings? And how can we just look at others just like that and think what they've done is forgivable bcoz they are not you? Never look down on anyone, unless you are going to help them. Whatever happened to the, "we are all one"? And that we are all created uniquely Equal?

There is one person that really helped me so much and is still helping me through every steps. I know the steps are mine to take. This person can only say so much, but whatever it is I say or do--will always be on my account. Even if i love or hurt myself in the process, it is still my call. But, I'd always choose to forgive myself, bcoz if I can't, who will? Of course, I'm not saying it's that easy specially if you've hurt the ones you love, but goodness!!! You are worth it anyway!

What I'm trying to say is, it isn't bad to forgive yourself even when others can not forgive and forget. It isn't selfishness. Bcoz I believe that people will hurt us, one way or another. We just really gotta choose who are worthy of our suffering. I mean nobody's perfect. We are not without flaws either. But if we will never love ourselves unconditionally, without reserve, who will? Everything starts from us. We can not be unconditional to others, unless we are to ourselves. And when we have it, bear in mind that we have to give it, to keep it.

Forgiveness is the best form of healing, there ever was. I can be a witness to that!
Much love *_~

Photo credit: Boyet Avila ( yep! I stole this from my brother! Hik! Hik!)

Fear is a question: what are you afraid of and why?

"Fear is a question. What are you afraid of and why?...."

Hey you know I was wondering, yes my mind is always wondering/wandering that's why good thing I've got a blog. Coz I can write here like my diary. Haha!

Will we still be friends/ brothers and sisters, weeks/months/year/years from now? Coz you know I also believe that nothing lasts forever. And the only thing I can be certain about is that change will always come and always possible and will always come within us.

So, maybe one of the things I am most afraid of is letting go of the people I hold dear to my heart. I could just hold on to them as long as I can, without the plans of letting go. Maybe one of the things I am most afraid of is to realize that things/events/people in my life are changing rapidly that I can not catch up. No matter how hard I try to chase them, they'll always be like rainbows. I can see them, they can make me feel something but it doesn't lead directly to them anymore. It now leads to nowhere.

So, what do I do when fear rear it's ugly head before me? I speak to it. Tell to it that yes, sometimes I am afraid of the things I get used to. Of the people I have come to love with all my heart and soul, of the places that brings so many good-ol'-memories. But what can I do? Life still goes on. The earth won't stop revolving around the sun just bcoz I'm sad/grieving/in denial/scared/angry/etc. So, I say to myself, keep walking. Have faith, the kind that makes you take a step at a time even when you don't know where on earth it's gonna lead you. The kind that makes you feel you are always where you are supposed to be. The kind that makes you let go and let God.

For now, the only thing I try to do is to never waste an opportunity to tell my loved ones how much I love them. To give an encouraging words to someone bcoz I know words can be sacred. I've known people who makes me a better me just bcoz of the words they gave me. When you are into writing, words mean more than just words. Words are a part of you, so I try as softly and gently as I can to speak of it with love. A simple act of kindness can lead to so many great things to someone. And always remember, we are all one. One love. And love is that feeling/emotion that I'll keep giving one more chance and always one more chance-always!!!! When you feel like you have given so much, give some more.

"Fear is a question: What are you afraid of, and why? Just as the seed of health is in illness, because illness contains information, our fears are a treasure house of self-knowledge if we explore them."--Marilyn Ferguson

360 degrees of inspiration

"~ There is a huge difference between being humble and devaluing yourself. I am always amazed when I hear I am "just"…. as if "just" was not enough or it is defining. I hear " I am just a Mom, a cab driver, an office worker, a sales person, a this or a that"… Stop. Look again, there is value in all you do. Services rendered may not always be met with outward gratitude yet if you can remember all actions are truly important… it enables you to give credence to yourself as well as others feeling the same way..Even in the mundane… there is honor. If you don't do it, who will?"

i have said this, for like a million times, but i'll say it again anyway. i love my friends, and if you could read this, count yorself in. i couldn't stress enough how fortunate i am for knowing you. i couldn't always tell you that i hold each and everyone of you close in my heart. that there are the 'you' that always seems to blew me away. that there are the 'you' that differs from all the rest that you stand out on your own. and i want you to believe in the power of the beauty within that 'you', coz from where i am looking right now, you all shine your brightest light. much love

if you can not be the poet, be the poem.

a place where you and I could both meet: i made this photo for my childhood friend. i just ...

a place where you and I could both meet: i made this photo for my childhood friend. i just ...: i made this photo for my childhood friend. i just love her! she is a sweetheart !