Hey you know I was wondering, yes my mind is always wondering/wandering that's why good thing I've got a blog. Coz I can write here like my diary. Haha!
Will we still be friends/ brothers and sisters, weeks/months/year/years from now? Coz you know I also believe that nothing lasts forever. And the only thing I can be certain about is that change will always come and always possible and will always come within us.
So, maybe one of the things I am most afraid of is letting go of the people I hold dear to my heart. I could just hold on to them as long as I can, without the plans of letting go. Maybe one of the things I am most afraid of is to realize that things/events/people in my life are changing rapidly that I can not catch up. No matter how hard I try to chase them, they'll always be like rainbows. I can see them, they can make me feel something but it doesn't lead directly to them anymore. It now leads to nowhere.
So, what do I do when fear rear it's ugly head before me? I speak to it. Tell to it that yes, sometimes I am afraid of the things I get used to. Of the people I have come to love with all my heart and soul, of the places that brings so many good-ol'-memories. But what can I do? Life still goes on. The earth won't stop revolving around the sun just bcoz I'm sad/grieving/in denial/scared/angry/etc. So, I say to myself, keep walking. Have faith, the kind that makes you take a step at a time even when you don't know where on earth it's gonna lead you. The kind that makes you feel you are always where you are supposed to be. The kind that makes you let go and let God.
For now, the only thing I try to do is to never waste an opportunity to tell my loved ones how much I love them. To give an encouraging words to someone bcoz I know words can be sacred. I've known people who makes me a better me just bcoz of the words they gave me. When you are into writing, words mean more than just words. Words are a part of you, so I try as softly and gently as I can to speak of it with love. A simple act of kindness can lead to so many great things to someone. And always remember, we are all one. One love. And love is that feeling/emotion that I'll keep giving one more chance and always one more chance-always!!!! When you feel like you have given so much, give some more.
"Fear is a question: What are you afraid of, and why? Just as the seed of health is in illness, because illness contains information, our fears are a treasure house of self-knowledge if we explore them."--Marilyn Ferguson
I have read each and single word of your blog story and i must say 'it was long hehehehehe kidding, great sister you have great philospher inside you as i said it before !!!!!
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