An Ending I Did Not Expect

"I'm not going there to die, I'm going to find out if I'm alive."

These words had wrecked me, completely. (in a good way of course!) sometimes we fail to ask ourselves or to even bother to know ourselves. What makes us come alive? Do we know? And if we do, are we doing it?


I am not someone who would say, if you're living your life or not. But, with God's grace I have been living the life that I need to be living. Through faith unto Him, I have humbly learned that if i have got no control over the turning of events in my life, then He is absolutely taking care of it all! And it weakens me, to my knees , that I have got someone who's taking care of the bigger business in my life, for me. And the feeling of submission unto Him, I feel like enveloped in a warm cloth, held so ever gently. And I have never been more sure in my life, than that of the feelings that I felt. That I am safe, and loved. That I am fully covered by His grace. By His unbridled mercy. By His unconditional love. And it brings joy to my very core, to every fiber of my being, that I am always where I should be.


And if you ever asked me again if I'm living the life of my dreams? No! if you were to ask me a year ago. But, today? I am living in it! No, not just living in it, I have also live my life. More than I could ever dare to dream of! With bonuses and interests that I don't know where came from! Lol!


And ever since that liberating event in my life, I have been thanking Him silently, quietly, no one could ever hear how grateful I am, but Him from the whispers of my heart. But today, I wanna take this small space to thank God, for everything. Even the smallest particle in my body have learned to adore the Lover that loves relentlessly!
And every moment spent unto Him is a moment of eternal love from a Parent to His child.


And because of this, of the overflowing love I have unto Him, I know I am alive! And because of this I also learned that.... I will have to respectfully disagree with the quote above... I have gone out too, yes! but the place where I have found out that I am alive is in me, within me. Because I know that God is at the very center of my being! And that's what makes me come alive! The love within me. The unconditional self-love.......

And the Divine love! <3