I've always believed that destiny is just an excuse of letting things happen instead of making things happen. But now I don't! Lol! ( okay, being the stubborn me, I would every now and then try to 'force' things my way. Not a good idea always! Lol!)
About seven years ago, I broke up with a good guy. It was my fault. I just left him hanging in there. It was terrible as my heart wanted to sail to the unknown. I was stubborn and inconsiderate. I am impulsive and very reactive. I left without letting him know.
A few days or a week, I received a call from my mom saying this guy had committed a suicide and the mom was asking my mom if she knows why. The guy was in a coma. I was, back then, shaking! I have no idea! I have no idea! I have no idea! Yes! I was soo shocked that I really wanted to come back home. But my friend insisted on to just let it go and what would I do if I am back? I will just be hated anyway! (yeah, yeah, I was like heartless!) He was able to survive and was able to contact my mom. My mom told him to just forget about me 'cause he deserves someone better. And I know he was able to rise above it and get well, but I don't have the heart yet to tell him I was sorry. when I had established myself, like a place to stay, foods, etc. I tried to contact him. No luck. I asked my mom to contact him and tell him I'm sorry. But the number wasn't active anymore. I tried and tried and kept on going back to this friendster account hoping I'd see him. I really wanted to say sorry. But I had no luck. I even searched for him on fb. It took me years to finally stopped and just let things go...
Until one day, someone sent a friend request to me. And he introduced himself. What's even silly is that he just saw my comment from one of the people who is my friend from which he was subscribed to. It was him!!! Oh my goodness!!! It was him! And I don't know how! I don't know how to react! First thing was first. Asked each other how each other had been. And a few more catch ups. And my apologies.
It was like magic! By God's grace through God's perfect time! PERFECT!!!!! I also believe if I had met up with him earlier, I would just cause a lot of hurt on him. Thank goodness that I think God knows I am not capable of hurting this person anymore in anyway. And so, even when I haven't done anything, it just happened! Right before my very eyes, in a day like any other day, an ordinary day. A miracle happened! ( though you and my life is already a miracle in itself) And I don't know what to make up with that but---- God is good!
We do not talk anymore and I feel I could die without any regret for I was able to say my heartfelt apology to this person. But, I am living and that proves I still have a lot of learning to do. I only wish he could find the loveliest girl for him. The one he so rightfully deserves.
In God's perfect time, what's meant to be will always have it's way. And if it's not happening any moment right now-- appreciate the things, people and events this very moment for they could even be greater than the one you wished for. Remember, God knows what we need, he hears what we want, but always delivers what's best for us. <3
P.S.
Having said everything that I have said, also know this is not to tell you that you should just wait and let things happen. (lazy) No! There are those that you can make things happen! You must know when to draw the line. (wisdom and courage)
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